Well That Didn't Work

I FEEL LIKE I'M 7 ALL OVER AGAIN...
...all I want is a relationship. BRACE YOURSELVES FOR AN EXTREMELY CORNY ENTRY. All of my dreams both during the day and at night (yeah, I started having dreams again--weird) are consumed by him, the man whose face I can never see. You know the Savage Garden song "I Knew I Loved You?" It goes "I knew I loved you before I met you. I think I dreamed you into life..." and lately, it seems oddly fitting. I'm so deeply in love with him and I've never even seen him...

I've never seen his face, but I know his body type and how he dresses. He has thick brown hair and a smile that could melt an iceberg. He's your typical tall, dark, and handsome...oh, is he handsome (not hot, not cute, handsome.) He's incredibly, ridiculously intelligent and I have a tremendous amount of respect for him. I'm interested in everything he has to say about anything and I hang on every word he says. His name is something like Danny or Ben, names fitting for someone like him. He's genuinely kind and very romantic. He adores me and reminds me constantly just how much he loves me, he talks about the future, our future.

I can see him proposing, my ideal proposal. I see our wedding, our matching smiles. I see our honeymoon, snuggled together on a beach somewhere thousands of miles from the world we both know. I see our home, our perfect house, perfect because of the atmosphere we've created there. We laugh together as we try to fix our kitchen sink, surrounded by boxes we've yet to unpack.

We're not perfect, we have arguments, but we're very much in love.

But he exists only in my dreams. I don't think men feel love, I don't think men dream about love and marriage, about starting lives of their own...I talk about relationships with my guy friends all the time...not one of them has ever told me he just wants to meet the right girl.

I don't know if I believe in love anymore, it was all a lie...maybe it only exists in dreams. Comments ()

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