Well That Didn't Work

WE WERE MARVELOUS ONCE
As I mentioned last night, I saw Dennis yesterday for the first time in almost three weeks. I'd missed him. We had a nice conversation about things that had been going on in our lives and in the world, showed each other some things on the computer, etc. It was nice. When it came time to address relationship issues, however...

He didn't have answers to any of my questions, so I am no closer to closure than I was a week ago and am only more convinced of how wrong this is.
-Why was it so sudden? "I don't know, it just happened."
-What were you thinking about that led you to this decision? "I don't know."
-When did it all happen in your mind? "I don't know."
-How do you stop loving someone (just like that) if you haven't changed and they -haven't changed and you don't believe the relationship to be a victim of circumstance? "I don't know."
-Why don't you think its worth trying? "I don't think it will work out."
-Why? You're always the optomistic one, what do you have to lose? "I don't know."
-Why don't you think it could be different? Better? "I don't think it will be"
-How would you know, do you have a justification, anything to prove it or validate that? "No"
-Why did you want me to fight for us when you first came over? "You had told me just to leave, you started crying, I wanted to talk about it."
-Why did you take 10 days when you're normally so decisive? "I don't know."

Don't get me wrong, the conversation wasn't painful in the sense that neither one of us is bitter or angry...I'm just thuroughly confused and very honestly, I think he is too...not so much on how he's feeling, but why.

Even if he's sure it won't work, there's no risk in trying...he just has to free his mind for a short period of time. We both loved each other, we had something wonderful...there's no way he wouldn't go back to how good things were if he could without difficulty. We had our problems, I won't lie, but each one is easy to remedy or already has been...

Well, I have amazing friends to help me. Still, none of them can make heads or tails of any of this from what I've told them, neither can the people that know Dennis. I've never seem him so turned off to something. He's not cold, just numbed to the whole idea, I suppose.

Trick-or-Treating tonight! WoO hOo! Happy Halloween!
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