Well That Didn't Work

TRYING TO GET BY
I can't believe I actually got any work done today. After a long shower, a nap and the exception of a few tears, I was able to force myself to read for both College Writing and Systems of Justice, although I have been avoiding my Macroeconomics book all afternoon.

A friend of mine convinced me that nothing I can say at this point (since I've already made my feelings for Dennis and towards our situation perfectly clear) will affect his decision. I hate that. I want to bring him the orchid he brought to me when I needed some space. I want to tell him that I want to take him to all the museums in the city, all the sites, all the shows...we have things to do now, we can have fun. I want to go to him, I want to go to him so very badly but I won't. I love him and if he wants time, he'll get it. In the meantime, I'll have to find other things to occupy my mind.

For example, the class elections. I am one of 8 candidates for President of the class of 2008. In addition, I'm the only female candidate and thus far, I have (reportedly) the coolest flyers. At least that'll keep my mind somewhat off of Dennis for a short while. As I mentioned, I'm going home this weekend; I'm not actually sure if that's a good thing or not, but it will also keep my mind off of Dennis.

I was watching Space Jam earlier today; don't ask me why, it was just on. The movie reminded me of the past...you see, my first "date" was in the fifth grade and the boy, Brian, and I went to see the movie Space Jam with his father sitting two rows behind us. Needless to say, it wasn't a real date. I remember telling that story to Dennis. Not only was I his first date, I was his first kiss, his first everything. I hope that those "firsts" can go back to "only's" at the end of this. I hope so.

P.S.-I only missed the G.W. deadline by one day. I'm applying there anyway.
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