Well That Didn't Work

RAMBLINGS OF AN INSOMNIAC
I sit here after having spent a great day in Washington among many good friends, most of whom I have not seen in months, about to break down in tears. Even I am surprised by how fragile I've been lately. I'll start at the beginning.

Adi, a friend of ours named Ashley and I drove down to D.C. late Thursday evening to spend some time in the area I believe to be my home and to visit friends who were lucky enough to have stayed here over the summer. While the plans for our journey (from where we were staying to who was coming) changed a number of times, the trip went forward with the highest hopes. We arrived after a fun (due the good music and even better company) though long (rain) drive exhausted but excited.

I am staying with my former co-worker and current friend, Crissy, in the wonderful Hughes Hall, where she continues to live and work. She had a shift from 2:00 AM to 6:00 AM this morning and despite having an accumulated 6 hours of sleep in the two nights prior to coming here, I felt it would be nice to keep her company through as much of it as I could; she did, afterall, offer me a roof when my original plans fell through at the last minute (long story.) I stayed up until almost 5:00, at which point I decided to get some shut eye. I woke at 10:00 this morning and began my day.

Adi, Ashley, and I went to Georgetown while Crissy slept off her early shift. It was a lot of fun. I missed D.C. and I missed going out with friends. I don't have very many in New Jersey, so I seldom go out for much other than errands. Anyway, Crissy had another shift from 2:00 PM to 6:00 PM so, the three of us went to keep her company for a while before heading off to Dupont Circle. By the time we got back, I was exhausted (sleep deprivation and a lot of driving) but I had promised to take Crissy to a mall accessible only by car when she got off work to thank her for letting me stay in her room for a few nights (and to have fun, of course.) That girl can SHOP, lol. She's a lot of fun.

Crissy and I left the mall as it was closing. Both starving, we picked up food on the way back to the dorm only to discover upon our arrival that Adi had left (she had remained at the dorm to rest;) she returned a short time later upset about what I can only assume was a number of small stresses that had finally gotten to her. As they say, misery loves company. I spent the rest of the night trying to console her. What are friends for, right? The thing is, when she gets upset, she doesn't really want to feel better, she wants to be miserable for a while. She doesn't intend for everyone around her to get upset when she's like that, but she gets really irritable, easily annoyed, frustrated, and just in generally pissy, which makes not getting upset around her exceedingly difficult. I'm gradually learning to simply leave her alone; I just hate not being able to help a friend though...I always want to help.

So, now I feel miserable myself, not to mention completely useless. *Sigh* Hopefully, tomorrow will be better. Comments ()

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